Others will never see the good side of me and will just
point out my weaknesses. Maybe, because that’s the way they met or they know me
as that kind of person, the worse.
I admit the fact that I had made mistakes in my entire life
both intentional and not. No matter how I try to be good and be the best, the
sad truth is some people won’t see and would just see me at my worse part. That’s the way it goes. Maybe
because what I did for them it’s not enough, a responsibility or just a small
thing that can be dissolve easily.
To be honest it doesn’t matter to me at all. But, I won’t
deny the fact that I don’t get hurt. Who doesn’t right? When you’re trying your
best, but they still think that you are worse.
Well, I can say that I’m okay. When I say I’m okay, I meant
it, no hidden feelings. I don’t say I’m okay just because no one will
understand me, they are not in my shoes or I’m just lazy to explain how I feel.
Really, I’m okay and don’t question that.
Even I’m trying my best I still make mistakes. It’s been a
long time since I already accepted the truth that I can’t change how others
thinks about me and the sad part they would just see me at my downfall.
The most important is the decision on my happiness is still
within me. And at the end of the day I need to stand up and be happy with my
own life and be not responsible for how other’s view me.
That’s why I am grateful to those who see that I have a
heart even I am far from being saint. To those who see the best in me even I am
far from the ideal and to those who appreciates me from my smallest
efforts. But above all, I am truly
grateful to those who believe that I can do better than what I think is already
enough for.
